as of yesterday i decided that i wasn't going to attend any gathering for thanksgiving. just not in the mood. i didn't hear from anyone until this morning. i didn't answer the phone because i wasn't in the mood to talk to anyone. martha said that dinner was at 2pm at pastor billie's. i wrote up a draft text that i wouldn't be coming out this year. i couldn't bring myself to send it right then. i said i'd send it in a couple of hours if i felt the same way. around 11:30am i decided to attend a dinner. my hope was to forget my troubles for a little while. it worked. i focused on the jokes and good food.

'A' sent me a viral video...meh...it might be funny if i were in a better mood. it's the only thing he said so i didn't feel that it deserved a response.

the internet-provided shibari pics that i scheduled to arrive on his bday, however, did get a response. looks like he appreciated them.