this is the first weekend i've had off in weeks and i thought i was going to enjoy more than i actually did. i didn't do much and i'm thinking that's the reason for my mood. the more i didn't accomplish anything the more i felt mentally drained. my mood declined the longer the weekend drifted. i did get my workouts in and i felt upbeat for a while but everything else was unproductive.

i did take a 2-hr bath yesterday that felt absolutely amazing. i need to start doing that more. i haven't taken a long, hot bubble bath in years. it was so nice.

oh good news. i took progress pics on the 15th and there is a noticeable difference from my first day pics. my waist is definitely smaller by a couple of inches. however, i'm seeing the same problem that i saw last summer. i lose weight off my waist (albeit, minute), hips, butt and thighs but my upper torso is steadfast and unmovable. i end up looking like a capital "V". perhaps if i refocus my efforts with free weights and perhaps even some crossfit i'll get the results i'm looking to achieve.

i want to lose a significant amount of weight before labor day weekend. i still want to see mark. i'm not sure why actually. how i felt about him in college is definitely not how i feel about him now. i guess it's out of curiosity.

we'll see how things are.