A's bday was yesterday. i decided not to bother wishing him a happy birthday. i'm sticking to my guns with not contacting him for the rest of the year. i'm actually contemplating deleting his number altogether. i don't find value continuing what is left of our relationship. i don't want to share my life with him nor does he ask me anything about my life. not really. nothing of substance. so i have to really ask myself why i even bother? i know the reason but i'm too embarrassed to admit it even in my journal.

i'm doing 17.5 hrs of overtime this week and i shouldn't dally managing my time. i have to be on it.

i still have to update about my brother. if i have time tomorrow i'll show you how God moves.