It's been a long few months since my last every and so much has happened.

My dad died due to the negligence of the faculty he was living in a couple of months ago. i have been a mess ever since.

I think I've entered in a bit of a depression as I don't want to do anything.

I don't know why I'm in like this. Thankfully I speak to my therapist tomorrow. Hopefully she'll be able to help me.

I pray but I long for death myself. I feel guilty for thinking it then I repent because everything could be worse. People are watching themselves die with various diseases and ailments. Here I am not able to handle a parent dying.

I want to write so much more but I didn't have it in me.