after i swore off guys a couple of days ago. mark sends me a text without being prompted in God knows how long. the text was foolishness at it's best. we chatted for a bit before i found out he had a long night of driving ahead. it was better that he get some rest before driving than chat with me.

the more i get to know mark the less interested i am in him. don't get me wrong, i think he's the real-life version of batman, but with batman he has his own demons that i don't think i can handle on a daily basis. his idiosyncrasies would drive me nuts. he has the mentality of going to the store to "see what he may need". spending the wee hours of the morning in casinos. and lastly, breaking his back to get the best deal for a bus ticket out of town to avoid saving time getting a plane ticket wasting hours if not days in the process. that is the biggest pet peeve. i told him exactly that. he's an adult. he's not strapped for cash. he's wasting hours if not days to save perhaps $50. it's almost like a game to him. i understand getting a good deal, but i believe my convenience and time is more important.

i still think about 'A' in the morning but i'm still working on redirecting my thoughts away from him towards my future. i'm a work in progress.

i woke up before my alarm and i'm just now moving about. i need to get up and clean but i have this desire to take a nap, lol. i'm terrible at adulting.

my nipples are healing well. these are the best piercings that i ever had. my navel and my cartilage piercings were painful and took forever to heal. my nipples are tender but they aren't painful. they look as though they will heal quickly without any issue.

i told another guy, an associate in atlanta, that i got pierced. i told him months ago that i was thinking of getting them done. so now that i did it he immediately said he wanted to see. i said that's the reason why i'm not telling people. guys have the potential of turning into @$$holes when they find out you have body piercings. i forgot about this when i had my navel done in college. i'm not even telling women because of the stigma that can be associated with it. one of my pierced coworkers caught me looking at my boob (it felt weird and i wanted to make sure it was ok) and she asked if i got it done...in the near vacinity of our new cubemates at work. i decided it was best to lie by saying i chickened out and i'm going to focus on traveling. i told her the thought of a needle going through my nipple was enough of a deterrent that i won't consider it again. she's very young...22ish. she's my 180 in regards to being reserved and demure. she's a black girl like myself and is currently wearing a waist-length curly blonde wing, 2-inch pink nails, and a full face of instagram model makeup. and mind you, she's pierced but doesn't wear bras. EVERYONE knows she's pierced. her barbells are so large that if she did wear a bra it would barely conceal the piercings. if i tell her i'm pierced, everyone would know i'm pierced. that's not something my coworkers need to know nor something i want them to know.

i need to read my bible. i'm not chasing God like i have in the past. i'm asking him to help me be the person that he wants me to be.