i completely forgot to add something to my diary. i wanted to share something 2 weeks ago. a close friend said she had a vision and said i would have a new job in 2 weeks. well, it wasn't a new job but the CNA class i needed. it finally opened up on friday. i was getting nervous because i wasn't sure if i needed to move prior to taking the CNA class or just miss out on the fall semester. thankfully, the off campus site is just 10 min down the street. traffic won't be bad. my only issue is that i have to rearrange my work schedule to accommodate the tuesday class. i think i should do a sunday. i plan on taking short-term disability for stress by october. i really can't take it anymore. i didn't drink water for 3 consecutive days this week. i knew i needed to drink but i didn't make it a priority. i'm repeating the same bad behavior i did at ibm when i snapped. i never truly bounced back when they put me in this department about 2 years ago. i'm going to talk to a couple of people to help me go through the steps properly so i don't have any issues. i'm hoping to be gone for three months.

hopefully, i'll have moved before the end of the year.