anthony bourdain killed himself. hanging. it's sad, however, i understand the overwhelming pain of wanting life to be over. i just know that suicide is permanent solution for a temporary situation. there has to be something better. there has to be.

i think back to the better times. jamaica. floating in negril experiencing God in a new way. His peace. His beauty. the sunsets. just all of his creation. paris. the sites, the architecture. the attention to detail. the long walks along the seine river. the art. just experiencing those things causes me to love something. a reason for me staying.