during portions of my prayer time today i heard God speak.

"if you're going to trust Me, trust Me."

"give yourself grace." this was in reference to me beating myself up and getting overwhelmed.

i need to take a deep breath and just breathe. i need to figure out the source of this anxiety that's causing me not to trust. if i'm able to get to the source of it, i can address it and repent. i just heard a something that i need to contemplate. am i ok with being secure in surrendering to God completely?

that could be it.