i joined a fb group recently. the group focuses on gardening and lawn care. since i'm not going anywhere, i decided this is the year i'm going to have a gorgeous lawn. i want a lush lawn that i can run my toes through and lay down in and look at the clouds. i want it bad enough that i bought aerator shoes (which are problematic to use), and a scarifier/dethatcher. i was hoping to get the scarifier/dethatcher in a reasonable time, however, it's gonna take a month to get here. far too hot to use it at the end of june.

anyhoo, the group will help me with some good practices to get a thriving, lush lawn. i'm excited. i was in the yard this morning getting some stuff done. i laid out 9 bags of mulch, aerated the entire lawn with the cumbersome aerator shoes, cut the grass, swept off the front porch and spent 25 min organizing my garage. i said i would spend 25 minutes in my garage after doing yard work to get it in working order. i haven't cleaned it in over a decade and it shows. i have crap everywhere. so in the last 2 weeks i've spent 50 minutes and you can hardly tell i did anything. but it is taking shape. i bought a tool box to contain the lose tools and parts that were just taking up space. even got rid of a box of stuff that was still sitting there since i moved in the house in '02. just crap that wasn't going to serve me in any way.

since the virus isn't going anywhere any time soon, i have to figure out which organizations are taking donations. i contacted a local domestic violence shelter to see they are allowing donations and they aren't. i'll find a place that does pick ups. once i can get a pick up and clear out some old, empty paint cans i'll clear out about a 1/3 to 1/2 my garage.

my period is late. i was supposed to have started yesterday. since i'm always early but never late i'm going to assume peri-menopause has started. i really should get tested but i'm really not going to the doctor now unless it's something that requires immediate attention. i have really no other symptoms so i'll give it some more time. it just could be late...which hasn't happened since i was 10/11/12.

i bought a toy as somewhat as a flex to my married friends. i was telling them what i heard about it and they said their husbands would not like them getting anything like that even though they'd be interested in trying it. and let me say the rumors are true. female ejaculation is real. when i get married, me and this toy come as a package deal. it has an autopilot feature that runs through 12 settings at random, not available on other toys, and it has an air pressure feature that makes excellent use of my genital piercing. i can give an honest review, this toy coupled with my piercing erases names and memories. i haven't thought about 'A' in a sexual manner since.

i'm struggling to push through this online class. i have 4 more chapters to complete then take a final. last day of the class is June 5th. i've been sitting here for 3 hrs already playing music and web surfing. i have a pattern of wanting to do other things when i'm supposed to be doing something. determination, where are you?